This morning, early, before the sun even arose, still hidden behind sodden clouds, Mom slipped from the ties holding her to this earth, and began a trip of such splendor I can only imagine.
For Mom, a New Journey has Begun.
For those of us, here, standing at a place where the Journey without her yawns before us bleakly, the pain is visceral. There is a desparate yearning for one more word, one more touch, one more glance from her sweet face... for us, the Journey of Grief has just Begun...
But how to hold on to the pain when we watched her relax in peace as the grip of cancer finally eased its vicious claws from her body? I can't. Tears fall as fast as the rain outside our windows, but I can't wish her back. There is only such blessed relief, deep and true as the heart tugs us to the promises that await.
"Jesus said to her, 'I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies, and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?'" ~ John 11:25
Mom has only just begun to live.
For Mom, a New Journey has Begun.
For those of us, here, standing at a place where the Journey without her yawns before us bleakly, the pain is visceral. There is a desparate yearning for one more word, one more touch, one more glance from her sweet face... for us, the Journey of Grief has just Begun...
But how to hold on to the pain when we watched her relax in peace as the grip of cancer finally eased its vicious claws from her body? I can't. Tears fall as fast as the rain outside our windows, but I can't wish her back. There is only such blessed relief, deep and true as the heart tugs us to the promises that await.
"Jesus said to her, 'I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies, and whoever lives and believes in me will never die. Do you believe this?'" ~ John 11:25
Mom has only just begun to live.
14 comments:
Jane - I am so sorry for your loss. But as the "grip of cancer eased it's vicious claws...", I can see where it does, in fact, bring "blessed relief." Hope you find comfort in all the great memories your family has had together. There will be many more as your mother watches from above and as her spirit surrounds you. As someone who is just beginning to embark on this journey with my own mother, I thank you for sharing your journey with the me. It has helped tremendously knowing that there are many triumphs along this rather tumultuous road. From my heart to yours, thank you and God Bless.
Oh, Jane, I am so saddened to hear of your Mother's passing. She is without pain and nausea now and that should bring some comfort to everyone. The hole that is left with you fill it up with all those wonderful memories you shared. Our Mom passed, only 3 months ago, the hole is still there and slowly we fill it with sharing memories of our sweet Mother. Pancreatic cancer is so crazily swift. I sure hope that they find a cure soon for this terrible cancer. I wish for your family peace and love. All my love to you, Little Wave Sharon
So sorry. still praying for your family, that you will all find the strength to look forward with courage and that the memories you have made with your mom will soon guide you to the comfort you so deserve. God Bless you all.
Hello Jane, first of all I want to thank you for share your life the way you do. You have such a talent to choose words and talk beautifully about things that most people doesn't see any beauty at all. After some time following the blog, it's like we know you in person, so please receive all the love that my poor english can express. She is an peace, let's do the same. God Bless you.
Dear Jane:
This prayer is adapted from one in the Kenyan liturgy.
Lord,thank you for Jane's mother. We are sad that she had to suffer so much from the illness that afflicted her body. We are thankful that she does not have to suffer any more because she is finally released from the pains and suffering of this life and is united with you and the angels in glory. We know your plan for her is perfect and that you have healed her completely, never to suffer earthly pains or live in fear of death. Death is conquered. Thank you for all who cared for her. Bless the efforts of all the health care professionsals who work so hard for new knowledge to cure diseases and prolong life. Remember Lord those whose hears are most affected by her departure. Visit them, comfort and strengthen them in this periof of grief. Fill them with the shining light of Jesus's resurrection and grant them the peace that passes all understanding, through Jesus Christ who died for us and shares all our pain with us. Amen.
Jane, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.
Jane I feel so blessed to have been connected with you and your mom, may your sorrowful heart heal and your tears that are flowing now have purpose... to clear the view and allow you to rest comfortably knowing her eternal life has begun and has freed her of all cancer.
AMEN
jeanne
Jane,
Your words and wisdom are inspirational and you are so brave to have shared your Mother's journey with us through all this time.
As you rightly said, your Mom's next, wonderful journey has just begun and I know it brings comfort to you and your family to know that you will join her there when the time comes.
You and your family are in our prayers.
I am new to this site. My husband was just diagnosed with PC. You are very special to me. Jane, I learned more from your site then I could ever get from my husbands doctors. Did you ever find anyone that survived PC? I am praying for you and you family at this very difficult time. You did everything you could to comfort and ease your Mom through this difficult journey. Thank You for sharing. Kathy
Thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. Thank you so much for sharing yourself and your mother with us, the readers. My mother is in remission from lymphoma and my father-in-law is in treatment for pancreatic cancer. Your site and your blog have been a real blessing in my life. Thank you for sharing your strength with all of us. Peace be with you and your family.
My own tears are flowing as I read about your Mother's passing. I hope I have the same courage and grace you, your mother and family have shown. Thank you for sharing your mother with us through your blog. Thank you for showing us how to continue to live and fight when the pain felt by all in the family drops you to your knees. My deepest sympathies to you all, and prayers for peace.
Teresa
Thank you all. Your words are healing, a blessing to an aching heart.
Resting in Grace, Jane
Dear Jane and Family,
So many are with your family in spirit and here on earth, even though you cannot see us. You will find your own ways through grief, but the deep love remains.
This love sustains you when all else seems unbearable, and then the sun breaks open one day and you breathe, love and find yourself living more deeply than you ever have.
with much love and appreciation
Chris
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