Today I was given the most innocent of tasks, to hold the cherub babe while she slept. Oh, and to rock her just so, while she dreamt...
Simple Bliss...
She nestled sweet into my arms, and time slowed. I counted feathery eyelashes and watched her rosebud lips soften into sleep. The old rocking chair creaked as we rocked, keeping rhythm with my rusty lullaby. My pulse relaxed, her breathing sighed easy and moments suspended...
No thoughts of grief, nor of pancreatic cancer. No worry over dad and the desperate missing he feels. Not even the hurt of knowing mom will never rock her... Nor whisper her beautiful name.
Just this little one and me. Watching her sleep. Sweetness intensified. Time stilled.
The Pause Button.
Do you suppose that's what God intended all along? He speaks it plain...
"Be still... And know that I am God."
~Psalm 46:10
A supernatural Stop. Be still. Don't speak. Don't justify. Don't do. Just. Be. Still.
I haven't done that enough, as of late. The Be Still part. This cancer has sucked our lives into a roaring vortex, where sometimes all we heard were words; test results, prognoses and treatment plans. The dying and grieving has only layered on more.
I didn't realize how much more, until I held the cherub child today. In stillness. In quiet. Watching, listening, running a soft finger across her just-from-heaven-kissed cheek.
Deep, deep inside that stillness, I knew that He was and is and always will be.
For who but a Mighty, Creator God could bring such innocent beauty out of the mess of our lives? We need the still moments to remember just who Holds each of us.
He is Mighty. He is Creator. And He is Bigger than all the noise we make.
Today, I needed this time. Time to Be Still. Time to Know that God is. And that is enough.
Praying you may find the perfect Pause Button for your life today. May it be the sunset, the beauty of a child's laugh, or the warm hug of a loved one. Take time to be still and breathe slow... Savor that moment.
Finding Grace in the Stillness this day, Jane
1 comment:
WOW! Jane, you are amazing! Never have I heard such deep profound wisdom and insight. I too have had that moment after our Mom's death when our new Granddaughter came for Thanksgiving. The babies are saturated in the holiest of holy's, giving and soothing all the while being "still".
( I would love to see you publish these works, it would help and touch so many lives)
All my best to you and your family, Jane. We too are taking our walk of grief day by day and are comforted knowing Mom is with our God and Savior. (Missing her everyday)
Little Wave Sharon
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