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Showing posts with label 1st anniversary. Show all posts
Showing posts with label 1st anniversary. Show all posts

Sunday, December 23, 2012

A Dolphin Escort...

Mom's memorial cruise began with the most graceful of gifts...

 
A playful dolphin frolicking in the muddy waters of Galveston port!
 
 
She brought smiles to the 4 intrepid travelers:
Jordan, Katie, Me and Dad...
 
 
The wonderment continued as we settled in to our staterooms
and began to let the cares of the world slip away.
 
A cruise vacation that mom would have loved...
 
 
We ate.  A lot!
 
 
 
We relaxed and watched the shows...
 
 
 
we explored the tropical ports of call...
 
 
 
We played with tigers!
 
 
 
 
We indulged in a Beach-side massage.  Ahhhh.....
 
 
 
 
 
And on tuesday, December 4th, we honored mom's memory...
 
 
 
at sunset we stood at the bow, endless blue above and below.
We released her with tears and sighs
and felt her spirit dance on the waves...
 
there was pain and grief as memories flooded,
but also joy and freedom as we realized the grief was softened...
her love wrapped our hearts,
not with the tearing hurt of first loss,
but of hopeful new beginnings with her blessing.
 
 
And in a surprising, touching end to the day, Dad bought a
beautiful painting at the ship's art auction...
 
 
the painting was aptly named
"Close to my Heart"
 
She is and always will be...Close to our Hearts.
 
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And then we arrived at the Wedding Beach!!!
 
What a delightful way to finish out this memorial cruise.
Katie and Jordan had a blast roaming the beach, playing in the surf
and relishing the absolute peace of this tiny bit of tropical paradise!
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
We arrived back home refreshed and at peace.
Tropical trade winds, soft and warm,
brought the healing caress of memories,
soothing to the mind's eye
and sweet to the much loved heart...
 
 
In Grace Renewed, Jane
 

Sunday, December 2, 2012

365 Days...

... without Mom...
 
 
Hearts still grieve and emptiness waits to be filled...
 
Moment to moment Grace gives Peace, and I know she would smile to see her family honoring her memory in a tight circle of Love, shouldering each sorrow together and growing stronger for the journey... 
 
But how to walk through this 1st anniversary without her?   We have silently debated, each of us wrestling with memories of that final day, not wanting to relive the pain, but unable to stop the flood of emotions, raw and sharp...
 
In quiet moments with Dad we've tread the unfamiliar ground, hesitant and timid...how would you like to honor this day, honor her memory, her life?
 
It will be a cruise...
 
As the days have drawn closer to this 1st anniversary, Dad's sense of rightness and calm have pervaded.
 
A cruise it will be...
 
He had no desire to stay at home, reliving those horrific, heart-tearing days.  Rather, the place he wants to remember her is a place where they had found such delight and joy...on the sea, sun bright, wind caressing...
 
We leave today.
 
On Tuesday, December 4th, we will gather at the bow of the ship and in silence and with deep peace, we will allow our hearts to open to all the memories...
 
 
How I wish we could have just one more hour, one more minute together!
 
Praying for Grace to Guide the Memories,
Hallow the Moments,
and
Fill the Empty Holes of our Hearts.
 
For Love's Sake I know God Hears,
 
Steady and Sure in Grace,
                      Jane